Judgment

It really does not matter what people think about you. What's sad is how much value I put on what every single person says. I had this series of like five minutes this week where someone said they were proud of me and then another person questioned a decision I had made. It was like my stock shot up suddenly, and then plummeted and I lost everything. It was pathetic.

Really, it only matters what God thinks. 2pac is right: only God can judge me, but it seems that I let people judge me more often. I care the most about what people say and the least about what God says. For real - I spend tons of mental energy considering what I can do to make the least people mad and the most people like me, and I spend substantially less mental energy praying and trying to align my heart with God's.

This is probably because people give the most immediate feedback. If you do something stupid, you're likely going to hear about it from someone in the immediate vicinity and if you do something praiseworthy, at least people won't ostracize you. God's evaluation doesn't seem to be quite as quick - maybe because he bases his judgment not on your performance, but on who he says you are.